Sunny Day
17th of December
Wednesday

For the past few days, though it was pretty hectic but at least I had fun, enjoying and stuff but today, I sort of screw up one of my major project. I'm suppose to do a presentation about the findings to my manager and partner but end up, my presentation was rather sloppy.

Seriously I do not know what am I thinking. I came out with a presentation with no decent title, no objective, no stats but mainly on the causes, finding, suggestion which is not strong enough to back me up.

Am I too focus on the finding of the problem resulting in this sloppy state or perhaps I'm still living in my own fantasy world thinking that I'm still in school? When analyzing, there's always careless mistake and that will result in giving others a chance to question, doubt my ability. Since there's always assignment for me that's why I have to learn how to multi-task and at the same time stay focus & produce the "quality".

Like I had mention a couple of times that my manager is nice and patient and because of that, it made me feel guilty, made me feel that I let him down which I start to question myself for things like, am I really up for the position that I'm having now? am I suitable for the job? Am I a person that is up for new challenges? I seriously don't know...